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Saturday, January 14, 2017

Selfie (Bluewater Bay #13) [Connor & Noah] by Amy Lane

~ sigh ~ I can't do this. I simply can't. I've read many reviews of this book, especially since they were either A-Mazing or bashing the hell out of the author and frankly, all I felt while reading this book is CONFUSED. It was SO depressing, we only got Connor's POV who was tormented about his lover's death, a lover he couldn't acknowledge since they were both in the closet. Connor's thoughts were just ALL OVER THE PLACE. At times I was simply lost, I didn't know what he was talking about, or understood his strange humor. Noah was a GOD SEND but I wish I got to hear HIM instead of the broken guy who wasn't even sure who he is anymore. This was NOT what I was expecting. I expected it to be heart breaking in the worst yet best kind of a way. I mean, it's the one thing repeated in all those raving reviews. The other reviews? the ones saying Amy was being disrespectful to POC I didn't see AT ALL in the 51% I DID read. Noah was portrayed beautifully, I liked his character and appreciated how sweet and caring he was toward Connor, how gentle and understanding. He was almost perfect.  

I really don't know what to say about this book. I gave it my best shot but I wasn't interested in Connor from the start and in the middle mark, where I stopped, I was just tired of him being so damn miserable. He was in a new place, acting in a great series he is truly excited about, after a year of mourning Vinnie, he has this sweet guy he is actually into, but he is SO DAMN TORMENTED he was lost without a slight way to be found. He was caught in an endless discussion with his dead boyfriend, and his agent was in a way drowning with him too, though she did her best to help. I actually REALLY loved her. She was so human. There was something so endearing about the way she finally became Connor's friend and not just his agent. It was THERE, but only now could both act upon it and feel the closeness. 

That's the thing really, I liked the supporting characters (especially Jillian the agent), I loved Noah's character and the beautiful impact he had on Connor, but I just didn't like Connor.. or I couldn't connect with him for some unknown reason. It's either he was TOO broken, or it was the way he thought that I simply couldn't follow. I really don't know what my "deal" is. I LOVE Amy's writing, I enjoyed SO MANY of her books, what's up with this one? Especially with all the raving reviews of how heart breakingly beautiful this one was which is usually my "thing" you know? Who doesn't love a "good broken character?" (Zsadist from the BDB... just saying...). ~sign~ now I'M miserable. 


DNF 51%
Read on:
13-14 Jan 2017

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